One of my Facebook friends shared Humans of New York. As I read through all the awesome post I realized how much we are all alike. We all have happy times and bad times, we all feel sorrow and joy. I wonder too how many of us deep down scared. Before she shared this post with me and I read so many other people's thoughts in snippets of time I was just thinking today that I am scared. I cried a little because I am scared of the future while at the same time excited for what opportunities may lay ahead.
I have had a lot of different techie online marketing seo related jobs the past 10 years. The changes I have been able to help make for businesses and the impacts they have had has been rewarding but some of the other people mainly the bosses have not! Maybe I should just tough it out when my boss or those in management are jerks but easier said than done. Especially when I can see and show the results that have increased the business, it's hard for me to eat humble pie, maybe it is a weakness.
I have been asking myself what is Abundance? What truly is living an abundant life? Is it having a job that just pays the bills? Is it having enough income that let's me live comfortably? What is income and what does the economic times hold for the future? What does the rest of this life hold for us and the planet?These are a lot of heart pondering questions. I also wonder how many other have these questions?
I personally have not had a "job" for 5 months and the few small clients I have do not cover my bills. I really want to start something new and do more creative work or at least be able to work with really cool businesses and clients. I love creating! I truly love creating, this is my passion I am most engaged and happy when I am creating new ideas and things. With others and with my own art, and for 2014 I hope to draw to me those people and ideas that can allow creativity which in turn can bring more happiness and abundance to the lives of others.
I believe we have choices each of us constantly to create the moments, hours and lives we desire. My cousin and I have spoken a lot recently about how we will choose to live day by day, out of fear or out of love? Like the symbol of the green horse I hope it will help me try to remember every moment to live by love and do my best to dissipate the fear. Yes it will creep in as it should for without it we cannot learn what it truly deep down is we want and there in itself lies the answer to creating better choices.
